friends + feelings

Accepting Reality // I Can Fix This…Probably. Not.

As I pull my phone from my ear + thumb over the red "hang up" button my mind is overwhelmed. For myself + more so for my friend. Ideas pumped through my mind, already full of possible worst case scenarios. Was my advice worthy of his situation? Did I say the right thing? Was I leading him astray with my own interpretation of the situation? Life was really doing a great job of punching him in the throat with one reality check after another. I knew he could handle it, but it still didn't seem fair. There has to be a way to make this better. Easier. Simpler. Yes, yes, I know! This problem is also not...my problem. The drama is not...my drama. Yet I want to help. I want to make a difference in the life of the friend I was just chatting with. There has to be a way for me to fix everything. (more…)

By Heidi Kumm, ago
runventure

Thinking About Running

Thinking About Running. For Fun. Probably. Maybe. Or Not. We'll See.

It's finally happening...I'm thinking about running. It's not just the "hey, look at that person running, I used to do that!" type of thinking that has been floating around in my head since I discovered running shoes. Nope. It is more serious than that. I've actually been thinking about the possibility of going running on the regular. (more…)

By Heidi Kumm, ago
runventure

Buffalo’s Boulders

Buffalo's Boulders; Finally Finding the Summit of Buffalo Mountain

Oh me, oh my. It has been far too long since I've had an opportunity to wander off into the wilderness simply because it was out there + waiting for me. Winter is finally here + the time suck that is a job is finally in full swing. I'm back to working 50-70 hours a week between both jobs. It's really not that bad, but it is time consuming. Once I add in the time I spend commuting on the bus 4-5 days a week + the long hours of wintery darkness my window of opportunity to get outside has narrowed. A lot. Of course, this is all my own doing + it was fully expected, yet the reality check of how little time I have to roam after a summer dedicated to roaming it's not an easy pill to swallow. (more…)

By Heidi Kumm, ago
runventure

Back To Running. Sort of.

Getting Back to Running. Sort of.

The last time I headed out on a non-injury-tester, non-race related run was...early September? Yea, that long ago. Since then I've run two time-based races with rather respectable finishes + wandered out onto mountain trails just for funsies, but nothing with any goal beyond "find happy" + survive. It feels a bit like my legs have forgotten how to run; they have definitely forgotten how to yearn for a sweaty, gasping run. (more…)

By Heidi Kumm, ago
runventure

Until Next Time // Big Dog Backyard Ultra

Until Next Time // Big Dog Backyard Ultra Race Thoughts

Not surprisingly, that last bit about the Big Dog Backyard Ultra ended with tears then somehow led "next time" talk. It's crazy how quickly selective memories kicks in. After I called my race at 15 hours/62 miles I let my last caffeine pill's affects soak out of my veins before heading back to Big Red to crash into my pillow for a few hours. My body was surprisingly awake [presumably thanks to caffeine we pumped into my body hoping it'd change my mood] but my legs were far less functional than I expected now that I'd let myself sit down. Crawling into the back of a pick up truck required far more effort than I care to admit...running was stupid. I hated running. I was never, ever going to run again + I was definitely never going to run a race as jacked up at Bigs. Never. Ever. Ever! (more…)

By Heidi Kumm, ago
runventure

Bear 100: A Race That Wasn’t

It all started this past January at the Winter OR Show. As usual a conversation with Landon made its way from gear talk to trail talk + it become obvious this needed to be the year he ran his first 100 mile race. Obvious, I tell you...because I will always encourage people to do the things that seem just stupid enough to be fun. By the time February rolled around we had both grabbed our spot on the list of Bear 100 registrants, hours before the race sold out. We were doing this! Or, that was the plan. (more…)

By Heidi Kumm, ago